I was on the verge of something. Something big. Bigger than you; bigger than I. Transcendence one could only dream of. Every night. Every heavy step of the way you keep me trudging away for miles and days. At this suicidal pace. I remember every single face. Every bitter word spoken, and every single fucking place. Pages and pages of this disgrace. Looking back I’m so fucking disgusted. I’ve walked the line so many times; waiving self-respect and dignity. Twenty five years and I’m tired. Twenty five years and I’m still just a fool. Twenty five years and I’m fucking exhausted. Beaten, carved, burnt, poisoned. Take back every lesson that you ever taught to me. I’d rather have nothing than any of this. In this case, ignorance is bliss. Now I, I’ve become completely numb; blind, deaf, and dumb. I’ve worn away. Everything I know has decayed. I count the days since when we last exchanged anything worth remembering. And I can recall nothing. All I see is black.
credits
from The Worst Things In Life Come Free To Us,
released August 19, 2013
All music and lyrics written and performed by Fate Worse Than Death*.
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Bryce Kariger - Rigerous Recording 2013
*Voice acting by Noelle Willyard